First of all, I've got to say huge thanks to everyone in this community, without Donut Team I wouldn't have been the person I am today, and I will be forever grateful for everyone involved. Especially, shotouts to:
Colou, for all the negatives and positives during the Buzz Team era
Duffhause, for continuous support and being a good friend in general
MorganVain, for fun talks, being a nice person and providing a great learning experience
WeaselOnAStick, for revolutionizing the way we mod the game, and making me learn more 3D modelling basically
And last but not least, Addy and the Pastry Commune, for being great testers and in general being very entertaining, in terms of discussions
Now, I get it that only 1/4 of the community will care, but I'm still gonna express my issues and why have I decided to leave permanently
1. MyselfI'm the major reason I have decided to leave. Summing up my 6 year-long modding career, I've created 10 big mods, now let's discern them:
1. Some Changes & More Chase Sedans - what the f***, seriously? No
2. The Return Of The Cars - Adds unused vehicles to the phonebooth until the point it crashes, 5 million people already did something similar so nothing unusual here
3. Homer's Adventure - The first proper campaign mod. Has no plot, bad mission design with seemingly random missions, still wondering why it got popular
4. Springfield Noire - Clusterf*** :)
5. Waylon's Story - Unfinished, broken piece of concept that stood still in it's development, was waiting for the Industrial Zone to be out for some reason to finish the mod, talk about being overambitious
6. Homer The Detective - Eh, the concept is interesting but the story makes no sense really, like, Burns tried to consolidate all electricity in Springfield? why
7. Set To Kill - Yet another unfinished, broken piece of concept that, despite being one level long, was still rushed and unreleased
8. Springfield Noire 2 - Clusterf*** vol. 2 :)
9. The Curse of the Flying Hellfish - Overly ambitious, it changed so much in the game it stopped being funny
10. Apu Nahasapeemapetilon: Ace Cashier - The only good mod, has an interesting story and pretty neat gameplay. I woudn't call it the best community mod, but it's literally the best I could offer over these 6 years
You see the problem yet? I've considered all my mods finished before publishing them, which resulted in a major shitstorm twice (led to it in the second case instead), the other couple of mods were lacking in either one aspect, or several, which is a no-no when making mods
I'm not saying literally everything should be perfect, you can not achieve a perfect mod, even DM4 is not perfect, we're merely human, but at least you have to try, and I didn't for 6 years, for some reason managing to rival big projects like Cops: In Springfield at some point, HOW
The other issue with me is that I'm severily selfish and plainly toxic, which has been proven by literally me constantly, by reacting to various drama and being an idiot in general, so if I leave I would do the community a huge favour by getting it rid of moronic mods and bad mod authors. I want the community to prosper, and I have a huge feeling I'm letting it down. SNoire mods are a proof of that, the first thing you're gonna associate "CMB" with - is the drama first, good mods seconds, and I don't want to bring any more drama to this community. Hell, maybe this post will spark some drama again, but I sincerely hope it will not.
Because of this I've lost any interest in modding this game, and cancelled all of my projects, from regular mods to CineMod Sins, mod walkthroughs and other stuff I've been doing on my YouTube channel, feel free to do whatever you want with the leftovers, I'm not copyrighting anything. I still want to be somewhat of use for the community, so I'll still support my translations, and I'll wait for the official website translation and other tools' to be added at some point in the future!
Note that I'm not writing all of this purely because I want you to feel empathy towards me or something. No, I'm merely expressing what I feel in regards to my personality, and I'm merely stating the facts. These mods being unfinished is a fact. Surely, I could go ahead and remaster them, making them better, and I even tried at some point silently, but I'm totally burned out and I don't even want to play the vanilla game, let alone create mods for it
I'm not the best person, and my mods aren't the best either, but at the same time I feel like I've grown and, to be fair, you can't make SHaR mods for the entirety of your life
Hope you understand
2. The CommunityYep, the community also has issues which made me leave, but despite this fact - it has lesser impact on my decision than the previous section. First of all, is the response, there is none
During the last couple of months I've either DMed or asked publically about some favours and just had questions in general, they were ignored, and I'd honestly be okay with any response as long as it's a response. I do understand that people I ask are busy and have personal issues to attend to, but hey, even I have those, yet I always provide a responce no matter what.
Let's put minor stuff and selfishness aside, a couple of people also wrote some articles for the DTdocs, which haven't been tampered with for a very long time, and despite several articles being sent - only a couple is online. There is no way to know the "status" of the article or anything, and despite user written articles being encouraged - it's been a long time since those files were submitted. This is a point here because people spent their own time on updating something that could be very useful for newcoming modders, yet it seems they weren't even considered
Then, I should also probably mention how a separate Community Health document was in the works after the CMGate incident. It contained general information about the drama, how the staff responded and what will happen after it. TYI, the drama occured a year ago, yet the document itself wasn't even finished, let alone posted, that sounds really weird
Then there's censorship, I heavily despise something that limits freedom of speech. I'd understand censoring something political or religious as it has no place in this community to begin with, so why censoring The Stoner Team? I get that they aren't really great in behaviour-related issues, but no one deserves to be censored if they aren't literally talking about nazis or something, besides, only a singular member 'broke' some rules, to my knowledge, so censoring the team in it's entirety is a bit of an overkill
The second side of the censorship is it's absence you could say, I find it funny how during June, a lot of time was dedicated to LGBTQ+ Promotion on the website, basically using it to their advantage with these pronouns, rainbow logo, etc, yet there is a certain transphobic, racist homophobe within the community, I'm not calling out any names, but be aware that this person exists and they make mods. Now, I'm not advocating for attacks, but this behaviour is intolerable, and we've tried to solve this issue by reporting tons of material against them, but it's apparently still being investigated months later. You took the CMB Union within a day, but can't ban a single person for months?
I'm sorry if I'm being rude, I just don't understand the direction this community takes, if it endorses this kind of behaviour (and yes, by ignoring this behaviour you only promote it, you have to fight racists and transphobes, no matter what they do or who they are. One day we have transphobes, the next p********* will invade, or someone even worse) - it's not gonna get good, and I'm worried, after all, I practically "grew up" here, and if this community falls victim to such irresponsibility - that would be tragic at best
Now, I'd address the elephant in the room, DM4, the map builder and other 'detained' projects, but everyone knows at this point. I have no doubts that they're coming in eventually, keyword, eventually. And yes, I do understand that literally everyone but me has families, work and other things to attend to besides the community, but to be fair, you've created this community and are moderating it, you kinda have to attend to it too, and if you can't - assign some folk to help. DT is getting larger and larger each day, and the fact that we have troll posts not dealt with for a large period of time is kinda worrying. What's gonna happen in the future when we hit, say, 100k?
Once again on topic of those projects - the fact that they're being developed for too long is great, more features are getting added, and more details being polished, but at this point I'm no longer interested, and I don't really care. I'm totally burned out and won't be able to enjoy DM4 when it comes out. A delayed game is eventually good, for sure, but you can't keep delaying it forever. I've joined the community as a kid, and now I'm three years into college, full DM4 is still not out. Although, I've got to admit, constantly promising that it'll be out by the end of the year wouldn't have been better, and that's a plus, if you're not sure - don't promise anything
Now, thanks for reading through all of this, again I'm extremely sorry if I'm being rude or aggresive, really I am. I'm not going to justify my behaviour, but do know that I wasn't planning on starting any dramas in the community again with this post, I only wanted to speak out for the last time before fading away, so please, if you do find it offensive and decide to ban me - do so in peace. At the same time I'm really glad I've joined the community and learned so much, I just wanted to share my thoughts for the last time, hoping they'll be heard and maybe addressed
Thank you Donut Team, for everything, stay safe and improve!
(PS. IF, I-i-i-f the website translation is going to be a thing one day, please, I beg you - Email me (email@example.com) or DM me in Discord (Gordon CMB#0458) to let me know, I really want to provide a translation for everything I can, so more people would enjoy the modding experience)